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Sherlock Fic - Reaction, Final Part
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Title: Reaction
Rating: R/NC-17
Disclaimer: I do not own these characters, and am making no profit from their use, more's the pity.
Warnings: Non-con and slash, Sherlock/John.
Summary: Written for a prompt on the kinkmeme: Before shoving him in the explosive vest, Moriarty fucked John, viciously. John makes it through the whole encounter with Moriarty and Homles via his own badass soldier nerves of steel, but afterwards, when he and Sherlock are admitted to the hospital for minor burns and abrasions and shock, the hospital staff find other injuries on John.

(Title page by [info]birddi)

Part One
Part Two
Part Three
Part Four
Part Five
Part Six
Part Seven
Part Eight
Part Nine
Part Ten
Part Eleven


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I've never actually read a rape fic that hit me like this one did. This is nothing short of amazing.

Thanks. It was difficult to write something this raw, and I was amazed at how many people said that this story touched them.

this story was absolutely, grippingly heart wrenching. I loved your portrayal of John so much I think it will be my new standard to which all of his characterizations will be held up against. How brave, and complex and vulnerable, guh. And don't get me started on Sherlock- crying! And the hand bandaging! I honestly cried nearly every chapter. I'm really rather a sopping mess. I usually steer clear of rapefic but I'm glad I gave this one a chance. Thank you for being so talented, and handling such a sensitive topic with the respect and honesty it deserves. I CAN'T even handle how good this was. It may haunt me for awhile and I may have to re-read it a few times.

Thanks. Writing this story was difficult, but I think it's one of my best.

gushingly positive feedback

one of the things that bothers me most as a a reader is when authors introduce topics like rape for shock value and then treat it too lightly. it's not because I'm a victim, but because I feel like I don't have to be to know that rape isn't like a punch in the gut or a black eye -- the mark stays after the body heals. I thought the way you handled the topic was amazing-- not maudlin or too light. it was painful to read at times, and at other times incredibly touching. I particularly appreciated when and how you ended the story. If john and sherlock had started to fuck like bunnies, it wouldn't have worked for me. thanks for this.

Re: gushingly positive feedback

I, too, don't really like the way rape is often handled in fic. And eventually, after thinking 'even I could write it better than this' for about the fifth time, I told myself to put my money where my mouth is.

But I wasn't expecting the sheer number of people who told me that I handled it so well, and that the story really touched them. I was really just trying to write it in a way that didn't screw it up too badly.

Not disappointed in the slightest

I won't pretend to speak for the general masses, but I truly appreciated the fact that you ended this story by being very clear that John's healing would be a long, frustrating (on both sides) process. There is no magic trick to get rid of trauma, it's something that you have to work through and will change you for the rest of your life, but with the proper support system, it is possible to get beyond such a terrible event. I'm grateful that you didn't give in to the temptation to wrap it all up into a neat little bow and a "and they lived happily ever after", because that would just cheapen what is a wonderful piece of writing.

Re: Not disappointed in the slightest

That's exactly what I was going for. That although there's no magic fix-it, no way to flash-forward recovery John can, with time and support and his own strength, get there eventually.

Sherlock was frowning at him again. “Is this news to you? I didn't think I was particularly subtle.”

Best declaration of love ever.

I just read this entire story and that's what I come up with to say. >.> No, the whole thing was awesome! And (I imagine) realistic. And I want to wrap John in jumpers and cuddle him till he feels better. But that bit that I quoted right there: BAM. Right between the eyes!

I love that they both made their way along in a perfectly happy and functional friendship while being quietly in love with each other with absolutely no melodrama or histrionics. I do believe that is a state of affairs never seen before in fandom. ;)

For all his love of dramatics, I can't picture Sherlock making much of a scene about being in live :D

And one thing I love about writing John and Sherlock is the connection they seem to have - friends, lovers, whatever, they just seem to GET each other.

I generally avoid "rape stories" because they're so hard to do well, but I saw this story so highly recommended (and had enjoyed others of your stories) so I gave it a try. And began the story last night and finished it this morning. You take a very difficult subject, and the even more difficult task of having John and Sherlock end up a couple in the context of it, a plot that could have gone so excruciatingly wrong in so many ways, and gave it real emotional truth. Your characterizations are utterly believable. Thank you for this story, I am very glad I read it.

I also appreciate your using Sally Donovan as one of the POV characters and what you do with her. Thank you again.

Thanks. It was difficult to write something so dark and raw, so I'm pleased when people tell me they think I pulled it off.

I just have to say that this was beautiful. It's realistic and touching and everything someone should want in a Sherlock fic.

Also, I'd like to give you props for remembering Sarah and Donovan, and not mangling them beyond recognition.

Thanks! I wanted to keep the focus on Sherlock and John and how they were dealing with everything, but I didn't want to forget about the minor characters, you know?

wow, found this via a rec by mahmfic... great story
I'd say i enjoyed it but that doesn't sound right with the subject matter... brilliant writing

Heartwretching, but lovely read.

I think this was a great place to end. It's always tempting to fix things and end with the happily ever after, but you run the risk of things dragging on for a lot of chapters with no change, or you fall into the trap of rushing. Throughout the story, you took great pains to make John's recovery slow and painful, so rushing the end would've spoiled things.

Instead, we are left with a feeling of hope. John will get better, because Sherlock has said so and Sherlock loves him, so it must be true. :)


Exactly - I was trying to give the idea that while this might not be *the* happy ending, per se, the happy ending will be there eventually.

Thank you so much for writing this story. It was intense and I like the strength that John should throughout and I like that you left it off with Sherlock coming to the conclusion and admitting at loud that he loved John. Did you say that this was your first fanfic? It was awesome.

Heart wrenching! You captured the personalities beautifully. Sad terrible topic but you really handled it well

I'm new to the Sherlock fandom, and I was moved and amazed by this story! It's *so* very in character for both John and Sherlock, and still a classic h/c angsty fic. I especially enjoy the parts from Sherlocks POV, which are spot-on for the way he's played in the show. I haven't found any fic that is so consistent with the series, and yet believably expands upon that characterization as well.

I'm casting my vote for a sequel, if you're ever so inclined. It would be lovely to see Sherlock & John tentatively progress on the difficult road to a closer physical & emotional relationship, and of course to have Moriarty get his full comeuppance.

Thanks again for the wonderful fic!

Thanks! And I don't think I'll be writing a sequel - this story feels finished to me, you know?

“I'm told I'm difficult all the time,” Sherlock pointed out affably. “Maybe it's your turn.”
*laughs* That was oddly satisfying.