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Sherlock Fic - Reaction, Final Part
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Title: Reaction
Rating: R/NC-17
Disclaimer: I do not own these characters, and am making no profit from their use, more's the pity.
Warnings: Non-con and slash, Sherlock/John.
Summary: Written for a prompt on the kinkmeme: Before shoving him in the explosive vest, Moriarty fucked John, viciously. John makes it through the whole encounter with Moriarty and Homles via his own badass soldier nerves of steel, but afterwards, when he and Sherlock are admitted to the hospital for minor burns and abrasions and shock, the hospital staff find other injuries on John.

(Title page by [info]birddi)

Part One
Part Two
Part Three
Part Four
Part Five
Part Six
Part Seven
Part Eight
Part Nine
Part Ten
Part Eleven


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Aww, WOW. I started reading this story a a while ago, and then lost it for while. I am so glad that I found it and it's finished! That was really very well done. Honestly, as I read, I kept commenting in my head how well written it all was! Really, just the thoughts and the comparisons, I dunno, you just made the whole things so believable, and the characters' thoughts were just so vivid and human. It really got to me, and I just love the way you write! Interesting and palpable every step of the way! I really, really enjoyed this story, amazing work! This one is definitely going into my memories. ^^ Thank you for this!

Thanks. I'm glad you thought it was believable - that was why I wrote this prompt, to see if I could write a non-con scenario (and subsequent recovery) in such a way that it seemed realistic. I wanted to have the characters all react in a way that seemed right for them, and to have no instantaneous recovery.

WARNING: This review may get a little long and have many redundant remarks. But I feel that story of this caliber deserves a little more than 'this is amazing'.

I read this at first as a 'oh, a Sherlock BBC story that looks really good', and then it quickly turned into something more. I am floored at how you're able to write such raw emotion, meanwhile balancing the trauma a rape victim goes through and keeping them in character.

I wish I could quote all of the amazing things that were said in this story but I don't believe I can. But I can tell you at which point I started to cry:

Sherlock snorted. "So? She'd still have you, would she? If I were in a relationship with you, I wouldn't let anything so paltry as lack of sex deter me."

This made my heart wrench and soar at the same time. All a rape victim ever wants to hear is that they are wanted for who they are and not for something they cannot provide.

Your characterizations were spot on. Sherlocks reaction . . . my god, you had it written beautifully. His rage, his sense of uselessness in situations where emotions come into play . . .

I wanted to hug John and Sherlock so hard and just fucking MURDER Moriarty.

Also I want to congradulate you for not turning this into a "having-sex-with-Sherlock-will-make-everything-all-magically-better-again" rape fic. I've seen too many fics like that and its horribly unrealistic for a rape victim to have sex shortly after the initial trauma. Sex is not the cure - strong emotional support, and a renewed feeling of safety and self are in order here.

Usually when I read multi-chaptered fanfiction I don't want a sequel because they're generally never as good as the first. But I really, truly believe you can pull off something great following this because I really, really need to see Sherlock get revenge and John feel safe again and you write so well! But if you never end up doing so I'm saving this to memories so I can read it again sometime in the near future.

Sorry for all of the rambling. :D ::bashful:: Good day!

Thanks. And I agree with you on the 'sex-as-a-magic-fix-it' - while it's true that some people do become hypersexed after being raped, it DEFINITELY doesn't fix anything. When I started writing this, all I wanted to do was avoid most of the cliches of rape-fic and try to stay true to the characters and situation while still having a semi-happy ending, and I've been blown away by how many people commented saying this story felt real and true to them.

Absolutely fantastic fic! *applause*


I'm not much one for rape stories, especially given recently when a friend actually revealed that she was a rape survivor. I was just looking through the BBC Sherlock Kinkmeme and got sucked into your story. I cried, and it was lovely.

The moment that really hit me was the moments after John breaks the hand mirror, contemplates suicide before Sherlock pops into his head...That was nearly verbatim what my roommate told me when she was feeling suicidal last semester. It hurts to see this happen to anyone, especially the gentle, kindly people sick f*cks seem to target like John, but I love how well and sensitively you handled the issues and the recovery process. It gives me hope that, in the end, everyone heals.

Originally, I started this story because I'd read so many rape fics that just plain didn't make sense to me, so I figured I write one that hopefully avoided most of the cliches and seemed semi-realistic. And I've just been blown away by the amount of people who said this story resonated with them.

I don't even know if there are words to describe how i feel about this story. It's so .... life like, sad, lovely, depressing, adrenaline pumping, horror, heart throbbing, and so many other things.
You write beautifully and i love you for it. Thank you so much for writing this!!

Amazing. Simply amazing. It was so many emotions, often conflicting ones at the same time. Just like real life.

Lots of reality. Painfully so. But well-written and sensitive. I liked the multiple POVs.

I can't say enough about how much I loved this fic, even though parts of it made me cry.

Thanks. I really only started writing this in an attempt to write a rape-fic that was at least semi-realistic and stayed true to the characters, and I've been blown away by how many people said this story resonated with them.

AAAAARGH!!! I loved this so much. I know I've already said this, but best John-kidnap story EVER! I loved it. Just enough fluff and angst. And Moriarty sending the sheets...pure evil. I've always entertained the idea that if/when I write a John-kidnap story, Moriarty would send John's bloody jumper back to Sherlock when he still had John. But yes, this is so awesome. I loved how it ended, although I wish you would do some kind of sequel, or in the same universe or something. Like how the Yard reacts with John now, maybe them starting their relationship and everything's fine, and Moriarty shows back up. Man, but even if this is all there is, I love it so much. Great job! *applauds*

Oh, quick add on-I also loved the different POVs of the other characters, seeing it through their eyes, and seeing big scenes from both John and Sherlock. ;)

Thanks! I don't think there'll be a sequel - this feels to me like 'the end', you know?

And I loved writing all the different POVs. It gave me a chance to play around with a lot of characters (especially in chapter four).


while reading it, it is really painful.like watching a dairy that a rape victim writes.so ture,so much pain,so much nightmare.all the reactions john gives,let me feel he's so brave and gentle,and all are his nature.besides,we see so different a sherlock,and these changes are also convincible.
and i find the end is exactly the right point.this torment may be a point that let this .start. comes.this start or end is beautiful,laughs are the best cure.
my english may not good.:P...i may not make myself very clear..
thank u for this story.

I can't believe I've only now discovered this epic, amazing story. Beautifully done, wrenching and restrained and perfectly in character. Gorgeous.

Oh god I loved this fic. I love how blunt Sherlock was about his feelings for John. Their characterization is absolutely perfect

Thanks! I could just picture Sherlock confessing like that :D

Pretty much fantastic. Well, there's no pretty much about it. Fantastic.

Excellent job. It's not easy to wrap up a story like this- impossible in fact, but you left it at a great place. Thanks for that!

Thanks! I figured this was really the best place to end it - there's still a long way to go, but there's a not of hope, you know?

I don't read stories with non=con or rape in them because they are so very rarely treated with due consideration of the after-effects, but I trusted you and I'm glad I did, thanks for posting.

Thanks! I've read some pretty awful non-con stories, and this was my attempt to write one that was at least semi-realistic, you know?

Oh, this is wonderful! I enjoyed the revolving povs, especially Donovan's.